Your words were enough to destroy me, yet I’m still here. Fighting for you, begging for you to fight for me. I know we’re worth it. We’ve been here before. No, this is not us coming full circle with our solutions not working… This is us, being in a relationship, for THREE years, and having to give our EFFORT. Life isn’t easy, love is the hardest, most complicated, confusing, earthshaking, craziest, greatest, most beautiful things about life that there is. Love is everything, rolled in a tortilla, thrown in to a blender, and mixed until nothing can be separated.
That’s how we are. We. Are. Everything. We can make it through this. I love you, you love me. And that is all that we will ever need to make it through ANYTHING.
For tonight, I’m going to sleep with high hopes, and a longing to see you again… Tomorrow.
The girl who will always love you the most.
You Don’t get it, huh? I’m terrified. I can walk like a bitch, talk like a bitch, but honey.. All I want is to be loved. You don’t understand. I don’t WANT to be hateful to you, I don’t want to make you walk away, I didn’t mean to make your best friend upset. I just want your attention. I really, really need your attention. Please understand…… I’m sorry, I’m going to try to be better.. and nicer. I mean it. Just please see me for who I am.
I care.. No matter how much I hide it, I care.. And I want you to care about me.. I know I may seem hopeless, but I just wish someone would show me how to be hopeful instead. I love you.
Last night, I was so stupid. I’m sorry, I don’t deserve you. Not at all. I love you so much, but not enough to let you go. I can’t. Not without you knowing exactly what you mean to me. You’re more important to me than almost anything. I can’t give up on you. And I cant let you give up on me. Please, please don’t leave me. I need you. Try to understand… I know I’m horrible, and that you can do so much better than me. I know that there’s a girl out there who’s beautiful all the way around, and could make you feel everything that I don’t, shows you every bit of love that I don’t know how to express, and makes you happier than I ever could. I know that girl deserves every ounce of wonderful that you are. I’m sorry for every thing I’ve done to hurt you, truely I am. I love you, so much. I really do. I’m selfish, and I don’t want you to leave me. Please, just stay mine. No matter what.
I’m so afraid to tell you everything. You couldn’t possibly understand what goes through my head every day. I miss you. In a way that only I can miss you. You came into my life and made me see how happiness really is found in love. I love everything about you. And I love the way you love everyone else. You have a passion for Christ, that I’m still searching for. You know of course, that I only want you to be happy… But I wish you could be happy with me. Wishing, and making it happen are different, though. I’m not going to jump out and try to make it happen. I’m afraid of failing, that you’ll see that you don’t love me. But please, remember that I love you, and that I’ll be here missing you…
I’m so tired of being lonely. Sometimes I wonder if this is right. If we’ll ever be what we’re dreaming of. Some days I feel like we are just wasting our time. I hate it. I love you, but I hate this. The way we are. Where we are. My heart aches every night, and you’re the only one who knows how to make it okay. Come make it okay?
I miss you.
There’s just something about writing letters.
I’m 17 years old, I do not need a babysitter. I’ve been taking care of myself and ever one else since I was ten. I know how to handle things, and make my own decisions. I’ve never been in trouble, or done anything bad, and I sure don’t plan on it. I love you more than anything in the world, and I’ll always be your baby. But I can’t act like it all the time anymore. I understand that you’re not ready. But I think I am. You’ve taught me well, and I appreciate you for everything.
I love you so much
You’re baby girl.